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Let the darkness swallow me whole
defenseless



I'm alone .
Coz I've learnt not to trust
not to believe .
Letting the darkness swallow me.
its better than holding on
and hurting myself


my days. without you

October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
August 2010

Desires.

  • The darkness
  • My heart to heal
  • to forget you

  • Loves.♥

  • nothing,my heart no longer has the capability to love afer you are gone

  • thoughts

    I saw you smile
    and my mind could not erase
    the beauty of your face

    closing up the heart


    backstage work

    Do.Not.Remove
    You'll pay if they are gone

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    Wednesday, October 31, 2007

    sry fer nt postin fer so long..im kinda lazie tiz daez n nt in de mood...hmm...121007 ends ytr...301007....nt meant 2 b uhz sei....hmm....pape uhz....ila wana stay sgl fer d tym bein...wait til de tym comes....k..bubye....tc yarh....


    Heading into the darkness 6:51 PM


    Thursday, October 25, 2007

    weehee!!!!!!!!!esk laz dae of sch!!!!!!!so happie..n den cn njoy...cnt wait til 1st dec...bt still long sia...i celebrating mai burfdae at sentosa til nyt...wit mai fwenz lar sei..canot wait lar sei....so happie tt no one in de claz retained....k la..i bored uhz..n lazie 2 type..kk bubye...ily viewers sm lar sei...muackz!!tc yarh...luv my dadyku syg lar sei!!!k la..tata

    signin off
    iLa iNsAn3


    Heading into the darkness 9:12 PM


    Tuesday, October 23, 2007

    sorie viewers 4 nt postin fer daez...kinda bz n abit of lazinezz...hahaz..raye..collection dpt $100+...tap..dh spent $50 highlight rmbt...den tgl brape tk terkire..mlz uhz nk kire...kire..den kejap2 spent...nk beli spec n hp lak nnt...tap mcm mlz uhz...tkde hp mcm ader freedom...ane2 g..tkd org le cntct...lao ade hp...kejap2 org nie cntct..org 2 lar cntct..leceh jgk..tap..kdg2 kinda boring w/o it...hmm...nk beli ke tk....niwae...tt tym jln raye ngn farah,arina n dierorg sume fun lar sei....haha..wish 2 go out wit dem agen...k la..i lazi 2 type2...mayb tmr...insyallah lar ehk...lao tk mlz...hehe..kk..byez sume..ily viewers lar sei!!!tc


    Heading into the darkness 6:05 PM


    Saturday, October 13, 2007

    2dae..quite a tiring dae uhz...bt it was quite fun....fun coz dpt collection....nt fun coz my plan failed...tk dpt sabo abg..n dey ol cme quite "early" @ arnd 3+..den dey ol strted cmin...sianx uhz...nemind..tmr oso cn..since tmr ish his bdae...haha...den juz nw...my ank sdare..n ol de sdares cme...bermcm2 clr lar sei...haha...mie pink olwaez lar sei..haha...bermcm2 hairstyle jgk lar sei...haha...cute lar dey ol...den nw my cuz outside...ila uat bodo je..nk bboal..psl outin..tap segan uhz...haha...ngn sdare sendri pun nk segan...haha...belo la ila...k la...mie quite tired...so ila wana take a rest nw aitez..byez!!!tc..ily viewers!!muackz!!!


    Heading into the darkness 9:08 PM


    Friday, October 12, 2007

    2dae ish d laz dae of fastin lar sei!!!!tmr is hari raya liaoz...kk...2dae went 2 sch as pernormal...den went hme at 10 am...den ayah fetch mie..den went hme 2 fetch mum..den go gombak....buy sum tings...den went 2 lot 1..buy egg,whip cream..n ol those stuffs 4 tmrs bdae bach...haha...den went hme..k la...i lazie 2 post..tiz few daez if i din post..i 1 2 apologize...coz gettin bz tiz daez..kk...slamat hari raya 2 ol muslims n maaf zahir dan batin...ila mohon maaf jike ade sala silap..terkasar bahase..atao uat sape2 yg kt lua sane kecil ati atao mara...kk..bubye..tc..luv u viewers lar sei!!!muackz!!!


    Heading into the darkness 12:22 PM


    Thursday, October 11, 2007

    okie dokie..2dae ish de 28th dAe oF fastin...cnt wait lar sei...i plan wit 2nd & 3rd bro liaoz...n oso my cuzies...n mum oso knew it alreadie....mum sae lao nk sabo abg at hme..ltr dirty lar sei...haha..so me n my bro plan 2 bring my 1st abg out..2 buy sumtin 4 hym...so...me n my cuz at hme cn gt readie...n wen evritings readie....i'll cal my bro 2 inform tt evritings ish readie...den dey ol noe wen 2 cme bck...den me n my cuz will hide arnd my area n get ourselves readie 2 hav lotz of fun!!!!woohoo!!!!!!thr will b eggs,whip cream,frizzy ribbons,flour,n water...ol tiz will b in a balloon except 4 d frizzy ribbons...n thr will b an xtra cake 4 hym..haha...wen asked hym 2 blow d candle...aft blowing..we'll put it on his face...im nt sure whether thr will b games held lar sei...tap nk ader game...uat pe kn...hari raya pe...tap...its oso abg's bdae...hmm....let mie juz tink abt it...k la..i gtg lar sei...im exhausted lar sei...kk...bubuie...ily viewers lar sei!!!muackz!!!!
    iLa iNsAn3 pEaciNg 0uT yea!!!


    Heading into the darkness 12:33 AM


    Tuesday, October 9, 2007

    argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ila ish so impatient!!!!!goin 2 raya liaoz...cnt w8 ler..mie,my 2nd bro n my cuz sis plan liaoz...abt the bdae batch...we plan 2 mix whip cream,mayb egg,flour n water into a balloon...n xtra cake 4 abg...haha...a facial 4 hym..hehe...evil ila ish here....wakakakaka...cnt wait ler...2dae was d laz paper...n maths was d moz difficult...wargh...headache sia do maths...den nid 2 mit my mt ckg...ckg nk collect file...kecohx uhz!!!i 4get 2 bring...sway lar sei....kk...den went hme..1st thing 1st..i wanted 2 cal my dady but mum's using de fone...den i msg hym..den i was bored lar..i msg he din rply...den i called out 2 my neighbour..ask her 2 cme in my hse..s i was bored..den verie d childish...go play ps2...tt la tiz la...haha..lame lar sei...den mum finish using de fone...den i used..den he was wit my x..haiqal...omg...y muz it b hym???den he passed de fone 2 haiqal 2 let mie tok 2 hym wen i dun 1 2...bt wadeva...i juz heck care dun care...den tok a bit onie...den i tok 2 my dady..tbe2 fone terltk...bab his bat flat...haha...2 bad...so pitiful lar... sei...hahax...wakakakaka...den i frm juz nw hav headache...ol tiz...den i gt 2 noe tt i havin my menses...woohoo!!!break fast liaoz..den i eat chocolate biscuit...haha...fun lar sei...bt wasted..itz juz 3 more daez 2 go...n i cnt finish it...hmph!!!im so upset!!!den aft buke...at nyt go my cuz hse at jrg...visit my abg sdare hu's juz been discharged frm hosp...den i played wit my ank sdare...aww!!!!!!shes so adorable!!!!!i juz wish 2 hav a baby lyk her!!!geramnyer!!!!!!!den at arnd 10+..den we went hme...n tmr nid 2 go 2 sch 2 submit sum werks...hmm...kk...ive gtg...bubye..ily viewers lar sei!!!muackz!!luv my dady lotz 2!!


    Heading into the darkness 10:54 PM


    Monday, October 8, 2007

    ello u ol!!!
    ila wana apologize 4 nt postin ytr...nt bz bt lazy...haha..kk..ytr nth much happen...same ting happen lar ehk...on de fone wit dady...den tok2 til 1+...den go sleep...ytr went 2 taman jrg...go sheng siong blanja barang 4 d open hse...so canot wait ler..i told my 2nd bro 2 buy whip cream..1 sabo my 1st bro lar sei...haha...tkd keje sei ila..ila insane lar sei...haha...i got 2 new nick...1 ish frm my dady..which is mami manje...1 ish i made maself...which is ila impatient...haha..canot w8 lar sei..tts y impatient..haha...hmm...2dae hav sci paper 1 n home econ...quite ez...bt a bit difficult..1stly it seems difficult bcoz thrs so mani pages..padahal...padahal...haha..canot judge a bk by its cover lar sei...nvr judge a book by its cover..hahaz..tk abez2 ngn idioms ila lar sei..haha...den juz nw oso hav mt oral aft recez...wargh...scarie sei...1stly bace sorg2 bley bace..tym dpn ckg je tergagap sei...omg!!seram lar sei..im juz so glad tt itz over..yay!!!tmr laz paper lar sei...den wednesdae no sch...marking dae...i dun 1 go liaoz aft tmr...exams finish alreadie wat...wat 4 go sch sumore..thrs nth 2 learn..niwae..i cnt blive im goin 2 sec 3 liaoz...i juz feel lyk im nt so matured 2 go sec 3 yet...i still wanan njoy my childhood lyfe lar sei!!!i hadnt had enough of havin fun,up 2 mischive...haha..tmr maths paper..die ler die ler...i hate maths liaoz...it used 2 b my fav sub..nw im startin 2 hate it..haha..itz sux..itz gettin difficult each dae...haiyak!!wen cn i stop studying???!?!?!i dun lyk 2 study lar sei...i 1 quit sch!!!haha..mcm real...den juz nw end sch @ 11.30...den w8 ayah 2 cme i sit @ de void deck...verie cold le...de wind so strong de..n it feels lyk at de beach..haha..so cooling..hehe...den juz nw reach hme...open de hse door...wargh!!!gt corn flakes smell..mum's makin kueh corn flakes lar sei...nk ikit bley tk...haha...mcm phm...den i cal ayah 2 tell tt im hme..den i cal my dady...he juz cme out of de sch..den i onlyn...my 2 bez fwen onlyn..den chat wit dem..den dey tok abt tiz syazwan hu's been waitin 4 mie..he's been askin 4 stead...n ive been kip rejectin..i dun 1 stead wit hym coz i dun lurp hym..n juz nw he asked fer stead agen...den i dun 1..tkkn nk accept kn..wen i dun even luv hym a sgl bit..if i accept bt i dun luv hym..tk baek sei..mempermaenkn hati prasaan dier...tts y i din accept hym...itz nt tt sengaje...dh tkd jodoh...den i asked farah 2 tell hym 2 stop waitin fer mie n find otha gals...den farah told hym..den farah sae..he was angried n he sae tt he wun disturb mie alreadie...at laz i gt freedon frm hym..haha...kk..tmr i post agen lar ehk...my hand tired alreadie..n im nt feeling tt well coz juz nw @ sch play rain..haha..nw havin flu..wargh!!fallin sch sooner or ltr..kk..bubyue..tc...ilysm lar dady!!!muackz!!n ily viewers 2!!bubye..


    Heading into the darkness 2:16 PM


    Saturday, October 6, 2007

    OMG!!OMG!!!itz d 24th dae of fastin!!!!!woohoo!!!another 6 more daez n itz over...n cn strt eatin liaoz!!!woohoo!!dh nk raye lar sei!!tk sabanyer!!!1st dae of raye open hse lar sei!!ol r wlcm...i mean...ol my cuz lar ehk...jgn nk terase...hahax...so mean sia ila...haha..biase uhz...kate ila mahx..im nt mean lar sei..im insane..hahaz..kk...so ytr i din reallie sleep lar sei...aft sahur den i sleep..so itz arnd 5+ den i sleep...lagipun tk sch kn..so sleep late uhz..nk tdo siang2 pe hal sei..den tad...sleep at 5+ den wake up at 8+ sia...wargh sleepy2...bt nt tt sleepy bahx..im hyperactive lar sei!!!haha..mcm pa...hmm..so tt morn i din sleep..i spent tym writin my diary as pernormal lar ehk...den i sleep aft sahur..den wake up at 8+ den i go 2 sleep bck...den woke up at 12+...den..i went 2 shower..den make bed..den i msg my dady..den he asked mie 2 cal...tts arnd 1+..den he was otw hme frm his dance practice..smangat dance lar dier...haha..bBoyin olwaez...tk abez2 ngn diernyer breakdance...da tao saket maseh nk g sei...smangat nah lar my dady...den tok on de fone..den i asked hym 2 cal mie bck ltr coz wana help my 2nd abg 2 clear up d hse 4 d open hse nex wk...celebratin hari raya n my 1st bro bdae...haha..my 1st bro gona gt dirty lar on tt dae..im gona sabo hym terok2 lar sei...dier dh lame tk kne sabo kn..tkpe2...hes gonna gt it frm mie..haha..evil sei ila..hmm..i tink im in luv wit tiz sumone..bt i duno whether he's feeling d same 2wards mie 2...tkkn nk tnyekn..mcm tk tao malu lar sei..so i guess..i'll juz kip it within my heart lar sei...its btw mie n maself...nobodie shud noe it...haha..bt if ani of euu noe liaoz..shuddup tao..dun let d cat out of d bag...ltr no use cryin over spilt milk..haha...ol d idioms strtin 2 cmin out liaoz...haha..kk...hmm..on mondae gt sci paper 1 n home eco lar sei...den gt mt oral..wargh...hate oral lyk 1 hell sia!!den aft oral cn go off liaoz...fun uhz sei ...kk...ily viewers!!tc ya...i'll b bck 2mr...kk...muackz!!


    Heading into the darkness 8:28 PM


    Friday, October 5, 2007

    wello..kk..gt 2 noe tiz person..namely roy...a bBoy..frm hkss...hes so cute lar sei..den tok 2 hym on de fone late at nyt...he fun 2 tok 2...verie caring..understanding...nice person...n cute lar sei...he oso swit lar sei...romantic de...haha...itz nice gettin 2 noe hym...den we tok on de fone 4 hrs...wah..bill cnfrm melambung lar sei...haha..den...gt fyt wit tiz butch..tk sedar diri...haha...dh pmpn uat pmpn je la sial..pe hal nk jad laki...dong dong ceng la dierorg nie...haha..kk...ive gt nuthin 2 sae...juz wana sae tt ila lurve new fwenz lar sei...n reallie luv my dady alot lar sei..haha..k..luv u viewers!!!muackz!!!tke cre ya!!

    signing off
    iLa iNsAn3


    Heading into the darkness 11:57 PM


    Thursday, October 4, 2007

    yoha viewers!!
    its muie iLa iNsAn3 as pernormal...hmm...2dae gt literature n history paper...wah sai uhz!!!my hand tired sia...4 lit is lyk writin 4 essays!!!wargh!!!den history kne tuliz lagik...tired sia...hmm...2dae ish de 22nd dae of fastin...wow!!!dh nk raye lar sei...lagi brape ari jek...woohoo!!!tk saba ler...nnt dpt duit raye..haha..n dpt pakai aju aru!!!den dh le mkn dh...dh lame tk mkn ice-cream ngn chocolate!!OMG!!!!miz them lotz!!!hahaz...ytr nyt..eat tiz chocolate...verie nice sia...wen u hold it...its lyk a cake...very soft2 de...den wen u strt bitin it...it slowly melts..bcme chocolate...mmmmm...yummy!!makes mie wana eat it ryt nw...bt fastin..hmph!!no fair!!!haha...hmm...den ytr nyt tok 2 hym on de fone..den i read 2 hym wat i wrote in ma diary...its mua lyfe storie...haha..i wrote abt d 1st tym we met..OMG...recallin d memoriez...was soooooooooooo swit....bt quite sad la...coz nt 2getha liaoz..hmm...juz wish i cud still b wit hym...haha...reallie luv hym alot lar sei...onie hym...bt den...itz juz tt mayb we'r nt meant 2 b...hmm....sad2 de...den ytr...my gud fwen fyte...haiz...plz la...itz fastin mnth...pe hal nk gado2???i c dem fyt sedeh sei...de onie ting tt we 1 was de both of dem..4give n 4get...is tt so difficult 4 dem 2 do so???nw...we gud fwen liaoz...gud fwenz dun fyte lar dey...kk la...i gt nuthin 2 sae liaoz..juz wana sae ily u ol lar sei!!!muackz!!!n missin 1 person lyk hell!!!kk..bubye..tc...


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