<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/6399106426008513860?origin\x3dhttp://memoriesoflovethathurtsalot.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Let the darkness swallow me whole
defenseless



I'm alone .
Coz I've learnt not to trust
not to believe .
Letting the darkness swallow me.
its better than holding on
and hurting myself


my days. without you

October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
August 2010

Desires.

  • The darkness
  • My heart to heal
  • to forget you

  • Loves.♥

  • nothing,my heart no longer has the capability to love afer you are gone

  • thoughts

    I saw you smile
    and my mind could not erase
    the beauty of your face

    closing up the heart


    backstage work

    Do.Not.Remove
    You'll pay if they are gone

    Desginer-1 2
    Basecodes-3
    Img-4

    Thursday, February 28, 2008

    hey evribudie!! im not using tish blog so much aredie horx!!! so i wun reallie update in tish blog luh. . im using de ila-happie-owaez.blogspot.com de. . tt 1 i will owaez update. . so if i dun update at tiz blog, chck de otha blog okeh! jyeah, t'kairex aitez bubuyiie!!!


    Heading into the darkness 2:49 PM


    Monday, February 25, 2008

    hey evrione!! fyi, i got 3 blogs ol2getha tao. 1 of it ish tish one..den de otha 2 mre ish http://hidup-berbahagia.blogspot.com , tish one ish fer mai mly assignment oso..its part of my mly assignment... so its de decent mie luh... nyahaha... den anotha one ish http://ila-happie-owaez.blogspot.com , tish one ish de normal one luh...de one tt i normally post lyk tis one...but i prefer de otha one.. coz much nicer...nyahaha... k luh..tts ol iLa wana sae...
    nyt2
    t'kairex aitez
    muax
    chiaoz


    Heading into the darkness 11:34 PM


    Saturday, February 23, 2008

    woots!! happie bdae 2 u!! happie bdae 2 u!! happie bdae to farhadi... happie bdae 2 u!!!
    yay!!! aft singing de bdae song juz nw...
    i take whip cream i put it on dd's face...haha
    den he saed nahas ko tym bdae ko nnt..
    oopzie!!!
    den eat de cake...den i finish eating,i get readie 2 go out
    wana go hosp n vsit mai uncle hu juz had hys operation
    den went hme at arnd 5+..
    den mommy cook mee siam fer dd's fwenz 2 eat
    juz celebrate at downstairs badminton court
    since dey were playing takraw...
    den eddy oso hab
    den he asked nasi lemak ader??
    den i was lyk ur head lar!!
    u tink wat?? my hse kopitiam izit??!!
    den my bro fwen asked lontong ader??
    urgh!!
    mepekz lar
    lao nk g kdai ler bli
    muke tembok mtk org!!! hmph!!
    den dey sae jmpot mkn...
    den i yea yea wadeva..
    haha..tk baek sheyy!!
    den mai bro fwen asked whrs mai matae??
    den i was lyk huh?? ane ader??
    den eddy sae 2 hym lar tt im sgl...
    den i kip wondering hu ish he referring 2??
    matae?? eh cmon lar ek,tmr its mai 2 mnths bein sgl
    woots!!!!i lurve it luh sheyy!!
    im loving it!!! parappapapa!!
    dun u luv it too??
    haha..siaoz sey!!
    haha...i loike!!!! k lar...tts ol i wana post!!
    t'kairex aitez
    muax!!!
    chiaoz!!!!


    Heading into the darkness 7:37 PM


    Thursday, February 21, 2008

    okeh....let mie begin by saying tt im sowie fer nt posting fer verie de long tym...aft de mondae i go n mc...nex morning at arnd 3+..i was sent 2 de hospital...huahua.. den i was hospitalized fer daez..den din attend skul fer a wk...huahua...den went de wk aft i went 2 skul..i wanted 2 cry sia wen i rch skul...coz i reallie miz skul lor n mai clazmates!!! den i held mai tears...huahua.. den went 2 claz aft flag raising...den at claz dey were ol lyk shouting...fara!!!! i miz euu luh!!! den i was lyk...ya ya ya...i miz euu ol 2 luh... den i got 2 get well soon card...1 is frm de claz...its in black clr...de ol wrote sumtin fer mie...such s get well soon n etc....den mai girlfies did anotha card which is pink in clr!!!den i look at mai clazmates up 2 their mischieve...so de cute lor... miz dem lotx!!!! huahua...den dotdotdot... k i reallie luv de song
    WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME!!

    mus listen okeh..read through de lyrics oso...huahua
    its damn meaningful...it oso relates mie so de much
    okeh till here luh
    anw...tmr dd bdae!!!

    HAPPIE 18TH BDAE 2 MOHD FARHADI!!!

    dotzie...
    k luh tts ol
    t'kairex aitez
    lotsa luv frm iLa
    muax
    chiaoz!!!!!!!!!!


    Heading into the darkness 6:33 PM


    Monday, February 11, 2008

    okeh...abt ytr..went 2 west coast park wit mummy,daddy , dd(&3rd bro) .... den rch thr aredie...we ate nasi lemak...den sit fer awhile..go climb de pyramid...den balancing beam...den went 2 de fitnez corner...den went 2 tis corner lar...we play see saw thingy... den...de ting abit different lar... den i sit down...den i was below...n de otha side whr dd sit is on top...den wen he sit on de ting..i went up..n dd went down....den he fell down... haha..i laugh non stop lor...damn farnie...hahx!!
    den went bck de shelter whr mummy n daddy sit... den we go de pusing2 ting..den dd go turn verie2 de fast... till i verie dizzy... den he aredie turn de tingy...he left mie alone n walk away... i shout lyk nobodie business... den i stop..den search fer dd...he aredie walk away... gundu sia hym!!! den i walk 2 hym huyung hayang..haha.. lyk drunk ppl lyk tt...den went 2 eat mac .. den went hme... nth much happen de...

    ABT 2DAE 110208

    din went 2 sch coz of diarrhoea n vomitting...
    ferstly at arnd 4 in de morn i woke up coz of stomach ache...den went 2 toilet...den evritin clear aredie... so mai stomach was damn empty...den go sleep bck... den mummy woke mie up get readie fer sch... i went 2 take a shower....den aredie wear clothes n avriting... wen i wanted 2 hav my breakfast...which wen i drink my milo...i vomited... urgh..hate it lor!!! damn awkward okeh...
    den din go sch.... went bck 2 sleep...den woke up ...went 2 clinic wit dd....otw dere...i was panting aredie..coz of tirednezz..haiyo!!den gt n mc n 4 types of medicine...den went bck hme... eat medicine n nw bloggin coz duno wat 2 do...klar..i tired liaoz..

    iLa iNsAn3 goin off
    t'kairex aitez
    muax!!
    chiaoz!!!


    Heading into the darkness 2:49 PM


    Saturday, February 9, 2008

    orytez!!! ytr went bck kampong...wit mai cuzzies...de followings r
    -->my aunts n uncles
    -->my ank sdares
    -->my kakak sdares
    -->my abg sdares
    --> n adk sdare

    went thr wit a car n a van...den rch sumwhr go shop tings at giant...den eat at tis place...bt den de service was damn slow...so we cancelled de orders n juz straight away go kampong... at thr den we ate... eat nasi lemak... den aft tt...we played swing...haha... den c monkey lar...fish..chickens.. den aft tt got 1 part verie de farnie... my uncle told my aunt which is hys wife...2 try out de swing lar..den my aunt go n sit...den my uncle go n push hard2...den verie de high... den i was inside de hse... out of de blue... i heard my aunt shouting...den i look outside de window...saw mai aunt n uncle at de swing dere...den i laugh out loud...huahua... i tot wat onie...

    den i n mai adk sdare n ank sdares were damn bored lar.. den i teach dem dance...huahua.. so damn cute!!! den aft tt...we go play swing agen..den near de swing...got logs n hay lar...den i bored ryt...so i go n make fire lar...2 halau de nyamoks away... den aft tt... my cuzzies cme...my abg sdare n kakak sdare n sum of my uncles...den use minyak tanah n lighter... den pour de minyak on de hay n sum coconut husk... den light it up...den de fire big liaoz... den i help my ank sdares n adk sdare play de swing...i help dem push lar...den suddenly my kakak sdare cal mie..

    "iLa" kak mel(kakak sdare)
    "aye??" mie
    "cni jap" kak mel
    "okeh" mie
    "tgk kt bawah tyre tu..ader ular.." kak mel
    "huh?? ular..? eh ar2 lar" mie
    "blng mak ar" kak mel
    "mak!!! ader ular!!!" mie

    den...mkck2 ol ask..big ar..tis lar tt lar... den i sae small lar...baby snake...den tell my mkck hu ish leavin at de hse...den da 2 jek.... de ank take tish stick lyk tt lar...sumtink lyk spear...den go cucok de snake...den killed it lar...den da 2 jek..finish packin n ol... we proceed 2 a chalet... juz wanted 2 look arnd lar...de chalet ish above de sea...damn nice lor...tanjung piai resort... den de room ryt... gt de bed...gt double decker bed n sgl bed lar...den ol2getha i count...hav 22 beds ol2getha...so much lor...den got restaurant...imagine hw nice it is...2 hav a holidae above de beach...lyk Lakehouse lor.. den we went 2 buy dodol at tish place...den went bck 2 de kampong agen....coz my mkck wan 2 give us de nasi lemak lar...verie de manie..so she giv out 2 each fam... den went 2 kip mart...din bought much oso... den went 2 mydin mart...oso not much ting...den de money tt mummy giv mie oso din spent until finish...if go angsana...cnfrm tt much of money mummy giv...sure finish 1...coz at angsana much more varieties fer mie 2 buy...haha
    den went hme...i was damn tired lor...i went 2 shower...den on comp fer awhile...2 chck mi fwensta n email...den cht wit fwenz at msn...den i was damn tired n sleepy..den quickly off de comp...go take mai pillows n babies ol...den lie down...den go sleep...i was damn tired aredie... goin 2 K.O liaoz...so i juz lie down lyk tt...den doze off 2 sleep...haha... k lar...tmr i'll b goin picnic....bt nt sure at whr... wit mai fam lar.. so if tmr i hav tym...n interestin tings 2 tell..den i post okeh...if nt...im lazie 2 post..haha..niwaez...haben done mai hmwk sia...k lar..

    iLa iNsAn3 peacing out jyeah!!
    muax!!
    t'kairex aitez!!
    chiaoz!!


    Heading into the darkness 6:51 PM


    Saturday, February 2, 2008

    okeh..i hte sch sumtymz...coz of hmwk!!! damn sux lor...i hte my maths tcher!!! so de merepekz tao.. n yea...sry fer nt postin fer quite long...my comp broke down...n dotdotdot... n nw...living mai lyfe singlely...huahua kinda fun n kinda boring sia... urgh!!! n nw nt doin anitin...im actuallie waitin fer mai darlink 2 cal mie...mai darlink xiao hui!!! whr r u?? haiyo!! i wana ask her sumtink lar... i cnt tell u ol... its a secret!!! haha!! bluekz!! ;p

    im damn bored ryt nw...n oso kinda frustrated tao...
    anw..juz nw went 2 jrng point 2 shoppin...wit mummy...bought many2 of my stuffs...im so de impatient!!! i cnt w8 till fridae!!! i goin bck kampong wit cuzies!!! OohLaLa.... canot wait luh sheyy
    wit my fav ank sdares, fav kakak sdare n fav adk sdare...woots~~
    k lar...i duno wat 2 type aredie... nex tym i post okeh
    tiz daez verie de lazie 2 post ar k..
    dada...
    t'kairex aitez
    chiaoz
    muackz!!!!


    Heading into the darkness 8:46 PM