Muhamad Abdul Qahar.
This was the name that was given to him.
This was the guy that was the sweetest ive ever met.
i know it may be hard for you.
you think its easy for me to let you go?
no its NOT!
i really do love you.
but i cant go on hurting the ones i loved.
as a young teenage girl,
ive went through a lot.
and ive been hurt a lot.
yes i still do love him.
and i tknk kecewekan u dgn sikap i.
in that relationship, while he was still out here.
i sacrificed my virginity.
i sacrificed my time.
i sacrificed my money just to let him take those drugs.
i even fight with my parents over our relationship.
do you know how much it hurts to see someone you love
taking drugs right in front of your eyes?!!!
do you know?!!
i dont think so right...
do you know how much it hurts to hear from his friends
saying that he's with another girl?!
and do you know how much it hurts.
when i hear from others asking him what happened to me and him
while he's with other girls?!!
he could say that aku nan ila daa break, sbb tuh aku go on.
when actually we didnt even had any break up at all?!!
do you know how much everything hurts?!!
and you think that leaving you doesnt hurt me?!!
it hurts me too much!
and if you think i didnt care or love you thats why i leave you?
well, youre wrong okay!
how much it hurts you, it hurts me more to leave you!
but i know that ive got to be strong in this situation and leave you.
because i know you deserve much better girls out there.
and i admit i was still waiting for his release.
but i wouldnt know what to say when he comes out.
i know its all my fault for sounding you from the start.
but i was too sad and i needed someone!
but leaving you, doesnt means that i dont need you anymore.
i have reasons!
i dont want you to be more hurt in the future,
seeing me leaving for him!
you may say that im just fooling around.
but im not.
its up to you to think whatever you want.
i'll remember you as the sweetest hubby ive ever had....
maki jee uh aku.
it wont make you any better.
cause youve been in love with a girl like me....
daa pandai maki aku.
tak pernah aku maki kau,
kau brani maki aku.
pape ar eyk...
iloveyou, 25July2010 ends here....
